Many people have been asking me about my transplant... a lot. On nearly every day I have at least two people ask me "are you ready? are you getting excited?" Of course I'm excited and you bet I'm ready!! I mean, hey I'm getting a NEW KIDNEY! [throws streamers and confetti]
Having so many people ask so frequently, feeds into my general anxiety about the whole thing. It makes me think about it nearly every minute of the day. This is good in most ways - I'm trying to divert my anxiety into keeping up the positive attitude I am apparently famous for. Being positive has always helped me through and kept my mind in the right place (i.e. away from panic!) Having so many people interested in how I'm doing also gives me purpose - it allows me to seize every opportunity to help others become aware of the importance of organ donation. Many often ask about dialysis and I'm happy to share my story and experiences as a dialysis patient.
Even though my anxiety level continues to rise, I find calm in knowing I have my very own "cheering section" to see me through this. Especially uplifting for me is the encouragement of strangers in the blogosphere, I sooo sooo SOOooo appreciate the little emails, notes and comments I get because they make me feel LOVED. If there's one great thing about the net its that one has a multitude of little ways to make a difference in someone's life even if one might not know that person. It makes me think of the old saying "commit random acts of kindness". You have all shown me kindness in so many ways. A big thank you is certainly in order.
I love and appreciate all of you!
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